When you left your room this morning, did you think to pray?

"Oh how praying rest the weary, prayer will change the night to day, so when life gets dark and dreary, don't forget to pray..."
Tennessee Ernie Ford

I have been struggling the last few days. I said no more crying, no more being sad. But, it's not that easy, I know! "I never said it would be easy, I only said it would be worth it." LOVE that saying, have it somewhere, packed away from when I moved back home...

When I FINALLY graduated from college with my Bachelors Degree and moved back home (going on four years ago), I thought life would be easy or at lease easier, and it was, for awhile. Then, my mom, my hero, the hardest working woman I've ever knowns, she was diagnosed with Dementia/Alzheimers. I read and researched, a lot on the disease, and tried to share the things I discovered with friends, family, and loved ones to help them, help myself, help all of us understand this horrible disease and how it affects the person who has it and their loved ones. It got overwhelming and sad. So, I took a break and started reading the Bible!

Nothing can prepare you for the sadness, for the heartache. Some understand, some have an idea of how it feels, and some, will never know. I don't wish it upon anyone.

I had no idea that I would end up taking care of my parents finances, (with help from my sister Heather), take mom to her doctors appointments, making sure my mom's medication is filled, refilled and that she takes it daily, and to be the housekeeper, hygiene and house cleaning product purchaser, and not to mention that I have an older brother with Special Needs living in the home, and now my baby brother, whom does purchase food and keeps us fed EVERY night. It's very awesome of him to make sure that his parents are fed, and fed good!

I'm overwhelmed. I really don't know how much longer I can take the pressure. I wish for more help, from/for my siblings and their families, for my mother's relatives, to be a team, to do this, to be in this together. It's heartbreaking, and we need to share in the work and in the heartache.
Show appreciation for those that are going above and beyond, and for those that are trying.

Today, I ask you to put myself in your prayers. I pray, for unconditional love, for patience, and for understanding. And prayer for me, to determine if I should tough it out a little longer, or if it's time for me to move on and out of the home.

Love you all!